Thanks man! I definitely agree that setting some dedicated time aside to do things like meditation is what I need, 100% of the time "some time" turns to "gaming time" and I don't end up meditating. I have a bit of the same problem with my studying as well.
So another update; we had a roll out for a project that I was involved in (3 of us total) occurring at work earlier this month and the roll out went disastrous; due to some very weak testing on the customer's part, when new users were brought into the system a plethora of issues arose and they were receiving too many support tickets to count. Our project manager was away that week of the roll out and so it was left to me and the other dev to manage the situation with the customer and fix the issues we found, but ultimately the roll out had to be delayed. That same week one of our coworkers (not involved in this project) was let go for under-performance, which kinda came out of the blue. All that mixed up and I definitely relapsed that same week and was very,very stressed and anxious. This was the first time this whole year I felt like this again.
So what happened was I noticed my old symptoms coming back (lack of sleep, stomach problems, recurring thoughts of getting fired, inadequate feelings, etc) and talked through some of them with my wife and a friend. I held it together as best I could and because I knew this time what was happening to me (anxiety), it was much more manageable than before, even if it didnt necessarily feel like it in the middle of the anxious thoughts. I revisited my therapist that weekend but this time I felt it wasn't as helpful, because none of the information I received was new. Which isn't a bad thing, rather I need to remind myself of the things I have learned in therapy and apply them better on my day to day.
The next week wasnt as bad since the roll out had been pushed back and our project manager was back to help keep everything moving forward. We have been continously working on issues since, but every now and then I feel anxious again because we keep getting new issues to work on, and it feels like there is just so much that I myself missed or could've done a better job with, and I keep getting this nagging feeling in my head that something big was missed on one of my portions of the project that might come back to bite us in the ass. But I know these thoughts are not productive and I should wait to deal with such a scenario when it happens (if it ever does), and I just need to remind myself of this.