Hello, and thank you for reading this.
I will try my best to nutshell it.
I went to college and graduated with a degree in psych, a decade ago. I've dabbled into acting, I love to write (minor in Journalism), and I've had a million jobs since college (none that pay enough). I decided to go back to school. I debated various ideas, but I chose coding because...
I had a blog for about 3 years. I also have made various websites. That said, they were all through Wordpress. But, I had thought I'd taught myself a lot regarding how to do it all, along with enjoyably playing around with the CSS and HTML. I'm often always on my MacBook, during my spare time. I've always loved being on the computer. Altogether, and when compared to all of my friends, I thought I was rare for knowing what a "static page" is and for all the things I've mentioned in this paragraph. I decided -let's sign up for a boot camp, hopefully get a great job at the end of it, and finally have a stable job that pays the bills. I thought I'd probably enjoy it because of the CSS and HTML. I signed up for the CSS/Design track at my boot camp.
The other part of me wonders if this is entirely not for me because -honestly, I go in bipolar modes (though I am genuinely not bipolar). I have brief moments, often -thus far- where I picture myself doing this long-term, and I think "I don't think I would love never not knowing what I'm doing, as podcasts seem to often depict this job." Then again, I am friends with a coder, and he acts like his front-end job is that of a unicorn. He's at peace and loves it. And, I feel like he and I are similar (I think). He's also interested in acting (my original life dream).
During the times I panic, every other job opportunity sounds much greater. I began considering counseling (which I pretty much stopped considering, since college a decade ago), real estate (I've done sales a lot, and I've been encouraged to try it by someone who does it, and it's also rather quick compared to other ventures -to learn about it), natural medicine (6 year gig, a HUGE loan, which makes me hesitant), and yeah. I wish I could be a writer, but that job is nearly impossible to get these days -many writers writing online for mere pennies. It's also hard to grow up having a dream (acting, in my case), and then letting it go when you're in your late twenties.
If you're an experienced coder and you feel you have some insight, I'd be so grateful to hear it. I chose this direction bc even though I know it's a position in which there's always room for growth (like many positions, and I want to grow), I didn't realize the true extent of what that means. But, I liked that many people find jr jobs after the program -that I could actually finally get a job that pays well. But, I also have always wanted to help people, and I'm now wondering if this momentary mindset in wanting to be stable money-wise has blinded me from choosing the right choice/direction, as well as the fact that I'm in my thirties and so badly want a purpose and an established career (have been wanting it for quite some time). I also really want a family, but I'm very single -but, without trying to, that does come into play when I consider career options and the lengths of time that they take to accomplish a simple foundation.
I honestly didn't picture myself programming anything. I more so pictures myself making things look pretty. But, my teacher has mentioned to me that jr level design jobs are hard to come by, compared to jr. Level programmers.
Any advice would be so greatly appreciated. I've started praying about it, and I happened to hear about this forum on code Newbie.
Thank you very much for reading and possibly responding.