Glad to find this board. Why I’m here: decrease in motivation and productivity, serious enough to contemplate transition into another field, eventhough I have always loved programming, and don’t really know what else I could be doing.
My story: background as C++ developer, moved into C# (which is my most productive environment). By coincidence slipped into business systems programming where I’ve stayed for about 15 years, eventhough it was not my first choice. Since a year back I was talked into a position as C++/Python developer, where I’m struggling. Python is a great language, but I no longer have the “learn all about it” feeling that I had in the past with C++, Delphi and C#. The people who hired me did so on my old merits, so I think I’m suffering from Imposter Syndrome (a term I saw on here for the first time). I don’t connect with my colleagues like I used to, and feel uncomfortable in the workplace. I also often get thoughts like “what’s the point” when working on a small part of the system. I get a guilty conscience from surfing the web too much, eventhough I often need to do it in order to call forth that moment of hyperfocus.
I work on games programming in C# as a hobby project. I do better when I’m in control of the entire code base. I wish I was more of a team person, but I have realized that it’s not one of my strengths.
I have contacted a psychologist specialized in CBT to start getting help. I have realized I can’t solve this on my own.