I got laid off at a previous job that I loved. There was never any pressure. Things got done at the speed I got them done. Sometimes that was fast and sometimes that was slow.
I didn’t get laid off due to performance. I was the sole developer working with a sole designer. They laid us off and hired a firm.
Now I start a new job in 2 weeks. They have status meetings every Monday. They say they are agile like but not full blown daily scrum. Not sure if there is any daily updates or not.
I’m so worried that I will be expected to accomplish something everyday. I’m just not like that. Sometimes I get stuff done really quick and others I don’t. To top it off I really don’t care at all for the company. It’s just work for me.
I get to work 100% remote and just come in for the meetings.
I’ve been having full blown panic attacks for the last 2 days as my start date approaches. Ive been in therapy for years. So that helps.
What should I expect? I don’t want to have to work my ass off 8 hrs a day. In fact I know I can’t. At most I can maybe work 4 all together. It’s just the way I am.
I need help. I need to talk. This is my first time on a team. A small 4 person team.
Why can’t there be a job where they are OK with me working and getting stuff done for 4 hrs each day. Even 6. I don’t think most people with 8 hr days actually work the whole time. Why are programmers expected to get something done.
And what do I say at the weekly meeting? Still working on it?
I’m so panicked.