So I have been familiar with depression for over a decade and recently I got out of a bad (platonic) roommate situation and tried to start my life fresh. I decided to join a programming bootcamp with a good track record and most of the time I really enjoy it.
However, despite doing well in the program I have no confidence in my skills and I can’t network for the life of me. The bootcamp set me up with an amazing mentor who I can’t get myself to talk to and every time they let us know about networking opportunities I panic and don’t attend. Though I don’t have high expectations in my ability to actually talk to anyone if I did manage to drag myself to something.
I’ve been getting the vibe that dev life is not for people who struggle with depression due to constant pressure and discomfort.
While part of me loves what I’ve been doing I have also wanted to kill myself more in these past few weeks than I have in the past year. I don’t know how I can get over the hurdles and what will be on the other side for me if I ever do manage.
I was thrilled to find this community and I am open to any advice people may want to throw my way. Thanks!