I suffer from mild depression on and off. Usually a bad bout once every 18 months or so.
At the moment I’m feeling overwhelming pressure at work for one simple reason: nobody else seems to care about the product.
We’re a small team with no designer, our UI work is weak but serviceable. The owner of the company insists on micromanaging everything which is a problem in itself but also bad when he’s the designer/systems guy/accountant etc etc etc. He also has the not particularly easy task of running a company to deal with.
What this boils down to is generous deadlines that become impossible when he finally gets 5 minutes to look at something two days before release, announces that it’s terrible and wants it completely changed.
We’re good at resisting and managing expectations but it still puts a huge amount of pressure on.
Most recently the product has been lacking any direction. We have no user metrics, feeback or up until very recently not even an issue tracker so we can find out what our helpdesk spend their time hearing about.
It’s led to a very bad episode over the past few weeks, I feel like I can’t cope with this annymore and the thought of work at all gives me those tell-tale stress tingles, hollow feeling, etc.
I’m reasonably employable with a few years’ experience now but looking for work in the area is a bust. Huge recruitment problems in the region.
edit: I realise I didn’t actually address the problem in the headline, basically I don’t get why everyone is content to sell a rubbish product, it’s maddening. Everyone just wants feature Z instead of making sure A-Y actually works properly first.