I know that as we get older we just have to remember that we'll always clash with some people.
When I look back in high school and even in college, I always feel like I'm bullied.
I am now severely anxious because of this.
I just feel hopeless that no matter what I do, I'll never be able to get a job.
I just can't find the hope to start a project or play in an open source project.
I'm self taught and left school because I can't figure out if I'll stay in school or just focus on my project.
And I don't feel like paying for something wasteful as it is just a vocational not a 4yr degree and most jobs I'm trying to get required a 4 year degree.
There's not a lot of job prospect where I live as well and no meet ups.
I need money to pay my bills and I've listed my service and in minutes my ad is buried.
I'm truly losing hope...
I have so much fears and this year hasn't been a good year I read the college students for example as many of my peers have ended up with debts and I am as well in the same boat.
So I think I just left before I will be buried more in debt.
Tech is all I know don't and can't work in retail again,
I tried applying in retail this holiday and no bite.
I've tried to get mentors to help me get on tract but I can't find them online as I've said no meet ups here