TL;DR - I report to a manager who doesn’t care about me or my role, and it’s putting the organization and my health at risk; no one seems capable of doing anything for me and I’m running out of ideas.
Hope you’re having a good day. I just found this community this morning and it’s like a shoe that fits perfectly - you know it’s going to be good for you.
Before I get to my specific problem, a little about me:
I am a self-taught database administrator and data analyst. I’ve been in the workforce for about 20 years, and have worked in both telecommunications and in healthcare. I am a leader in multiple programming languages / applications, and am recognized by institutions all around the world as a “go to” person for support, mentoring, etc.
I have been working in the Healthcare sector now for about 9 years, and have had 6 managers over that time; I worked at a major hospital, then moved to a government position, and am now back at a hospital. I have consistently had managers who a) do not understand technology or databases b) made decisions with little or no understanding of the impact and c) asked me to manipulate / tweak / suppress results. I have been let go from two positions because of my refusal to do so.
In my current role, I am the database admin for an application platform that supports Clinical trials and other medical research. We collect a lot of data on sensitive populations, including women who have experienced violence, people living with HIV, etc. I report to a manager who has no interest in research, and doesn’t believe that the Ethical standards that research needs to adhere to apply to her - she’s made comments like “I’m the application lead, I’m allowed to go look at whatever I want” - and when I try and explain why that’s not the case, she shrugs, smiles and turns away.
I have brought up a number of database-related issues (Upgrades, Security patches, etc.) but she doesn’t care; we’re now more than 5 versions behind the current implementation of the application, and she just could not care less.
She lies, manipulates data, and second-guesses everything I say (for example, I told her that we couldn’t set up email on a test server, she turned around the day after I left for vacation and asked one of my co-workers to try setting it up - brought the test server down for 5 hours).
I have brought this issue up with my director (“She’s the best person for the job”), human resources (“You need to learn more effective communication”) and another director (“My hands are tied”).
I have brought up the risks to the organization, I have taken certification courses (FreeCodeCamp and Udemy), I have been requested to help on projects at other institutions, but nothing makes a difference.
I need to keep this job as I have family stuff going on and I’m the sole income for the next 12-18 months, but I am burnt out, depressed, anxious, and extremely frustrated. As a result of everything I have high blood pressure, weekly migraines, and the little sleep I am getting is restless and often filled with bad dreams. When I am home, I am often stressed, cranky and distracted, which is putting a strain on an already stressful situation.
Any ideas or suggestions on what I can do are appreciated. I document everything, including the “as per our conversation” emails, but my manager will come into my office rather than put anything in writing.
Thanks for your time.