I’m an alcoholic: when I drink, I lose control of my drinking/drug use…when I don’t drink, I need to. Eventually, needing to always wins and I wind up drinking again even though I know how THAT always works out. It took a spiritual experience to change that.
That spiritual experience began when I got sober in AA in 2012.
I’m happy to share my experience with alcoholism and recovery with anyone who is interested or could be helped by it.
in what sense do you mean you’re surprised this isnt more populated?
i have an ongoing love/hate thing with alcohol, when I drink at home by myself it’s more for relaxation and I seem to keep better control over the quantities and my behavior… when it’s in a social setting, I don’t know if it’s because I’m somehow so excited by the socialization context but I go overboard easily and end up acting really nuts and if I don’t actually get into trouble I certainly take risks and regret a lot of it afterward; it looks to me a lot like a bipolar manic phase.