I have a simple problem, I will not (can not) brush over the details… so I need help to find employment without façades that are designed to look like detail, but are abused by those who see the opportunity in all the façade being just how stupid everyone else is… I won’t abuse it, I can’t, that’s my second problem.
I now live on bare minimum, to pay for medication and doctors, that keep me alive, painfully observant of the fact that everyone cares about one thing… it cannot be their fault, it has to be something else, but let’s do enough so we don’t carry the guilt around.
I am happy you don’t feel the guilt… because as I was saying, society (all of us) are the perpetuation of this façade… but until you thought about this for 5 years, please, spare me the arguments of reason and logic, your “no guilt life” is the façade.
There is a sickness in how we go about equal anything in our society… and this sickness is that I need to self-advocate (like everyone else does not matter)… and I can’t I don’t speak that dialect (which is selfish and not actually progressive btw), the one that others before have been able to and somehow be bought “in” and turned to celebrate how society is now the complete image… but wait… everyone else (not just people like you) we are “all” the image.
If I fit, then we all do, not just me, and if that is not on the table, then it is on you (not me) who expect me to take your handout and ditch the fool or be ditched as the fool… and if that is how you bargain away with your guilt… you are the fool.
I was once afraid to trust logic and reason, and live by accepting arguments that look like they were that from others because unlike myself, they were not “seeking treatment for a mental health condition” and that gave them a socially reasonable edge to argue, even when I can clearly see how this would and played out… I thought (or was made to think) I had no control. Turns out, people just mostly had very little bandwidth to indulge in a more logical and reasonable discussion, and so they always went for the jugular to make sure they win a good argument as far as social norms are concerned — sorry, I don’t have that subscription available for me, still stuck at (but not) following your logic, but clearly appreciate the social cue that you are too busy with things on your plate.
Now I just feel out of (logical and reasonable) moves (actually going somewhere), I humoured these opinions of so called logic and reason long enough, and they proved exactly enough towards assuaging the guilt of their authors and I am still stuck here by the way if you cared to revisit your so called successes… and because of that, all I can now trust is logic and reason, not your opinion… and from that I know I have no means for fair employment. I cannot afford the life style to get one — regardless of how much I invested to get this far into nowhere.