So, I just graduated from college a week ago with a degree in software development, but the career outlook seems completely hopeless. For background: I live in Wisconsin, I’m trying to move to Seattle, but anything I’m even moderately qualified for requires local applicants. There aren’t jobs in my area at all. The closest thing would be a 1 1/2 hour commute. It’s kind of been a dream to move to Seattle anyways, but even there it seems like there’s nothing I’ll be able to get. I had an internship, that lasted for about a year and a half, but it seems like I might as well have not had any experience at all.
Where this ties into bipolar: I recently started taking seroquel for Type II Bipolar Disorder, and I’m not sure it’s for me. Cycling seems to happen every couple of days. There’s a day or two where I feel near high, I don’t even sleep because I feel like it’s a waste of time, and that’s generally when I fill out applications (of which I’ve heard back on 0), then there’s a day or two of incredible irritability. Just being around people makes me angry, anything pushes me beyond reasonable limits. Then once that’s over there’s about a week of bottoming out.
I know I probably won’t even get an e-mail back on anything I applied to, but even if I did it seems like I wouldn’t last 5 minutes working with how up and down everything is.
I guess this just turned more into a rant, but I’m also looking for some kind of words of advice. Psychiatrists are in short supply around here, and getting help means making an appointment 6 months in advance. I don’t know where I’m going with any of this. Is there really any hope for anything, or did I just over extend myself and ruin everything.