Hello all. I haven’t posted in a couple of years, I think.
I suffer from Bipolar Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder.
In 2016 I was hospitalized 7 times for suicide attempts. I was committed by a judge to a state hospital for two months at the end of my stays.
I managed to land a job four hours away as a .NET developer in March of 2017.
The people seemed so great there up until I got engaged in April of this year. My fiance is two years older than me and has the same illnesses as me plus PTSD.
She is finishing up high school at Penn Foster, online. She is on food stamps, disability, and Medicaid.
About a month ago, I brought her to the office with me after my eye doctor appointment. Everyone was very cold towards her. They know all about her from me.
Her license is suspended due to a lot of outstanding tickets and fines. We have no family or friends here. So when she has an appointment, I have to use my sick time.
Wednesday of this week, my lead plopped a sheet of graph paper on my desk with a crude drawing of a UI for a new piece we are adding to the application.
He then requested that I make a functional mock-up. In my experience, a mock-up is non-functional and just shows how the UI is going to look and feel. He gave me two hours.
This piece required me to manually create a modal pop-up with a textbox, a search button, two tables, and a label that displayed a percentage met.
Functionally, the user enters a search term and clicks search. The top table populates. The leftmost column allows them to select the product and it then gets added to the table at the bottom of the pop-up. Once they are done, they click OK and an ID is generated from a web service call.
Not only that, I had to wire up the events and other aspects.
Anyway, I almost had what he was wanting in those two hours. I had to take out the bottom table.
We had a meeting with our PM the next morning via conference call. The PM said that he was fine deploying it to our customers on December 10.
However,y lead put me on the spot and asked if I thought I could have it ready this past Friday or sometime Monday. I said I could have it ready Monday.
After the meeting, my lead sends me an email with a screenshot of my mock-up with changes he wanted. There were significant changes.
In the email, he told me to have done by the end of the day on Friday. So, I began work on the piece…
As I did, I noticed I had a ton more things to do on it. That’s why I estimated Monday.
During that day, I had “writer’s block” and needed to take a break. I get along well with our IT guy that sits behind me. So, as a way to distract myself for a bit, I had a conversation with him.
During the conversation, my lead came over and asked where I was on it and if I had any questions. Obviously, that was his way of telling me to get back to work. So I told him, but I could he felt uncomfortable. He left and I resumed work on the piece.
I arrived at work 30 minutes early, ready to complete this task. At around 11, I sent him an update. He replied, questioning why I was doing things the way I was. I replied and defended my approach. I wound up having to do it his way.
That required me to rewrite a substantial amount of code, which set me back.
At around 3 yesterday, I was on the cusp of being done, but I ran into yet another roadblock with that web service. I worked more on it, but got nowhere. So, since my lead offered to help, I sent him an email about my roadblock.
In the meantime, I tackled another subtask, which was fairly simple.
At 4:50 he came over and asked where I was on it and if I figured out that section I was stuck on. After that email, I hadn’t looked at it. So, we basically figure it out.
He requested I do three additional things before passing it off to QA.
At 5, when everyone was gone, he let me know that I missed the deadline because I was talking to my work friend too long.
I told him I had tabs on how long I was talking and I had a game plan for completing it on time. Unforseen things happened that set me back.
We talked for an hour. During that conversation, I decided it may help shed light on things if he knew about my illnesses. Everyone else there knows anyway.
He did not care. He had no sympathy. He just said that that doesn’t matter and to get the work done. By the way, I have an awesome track record there and I am liked by many people. So, I felt his comments were out of line.
I offered to give him links so he could better understand. He didn’t want that.
He also said that my performance is dropping because I’m taking my fiance to so many appointments. That is completely untrue.
At the end, he came very very close to telling me I should break up with her.
We both left at 6. I was angry, sad, and confused. This is the first time he acted “authoritarian” with me. It was odd.
So that’s the end of my craziness. I hope someone has some sort of feedback on this.