I recently saw Greg’s talk on developers and depression, his story was an almost mirror image of mine, struggled to hold down jobs, dropped out of University even though I had a first class with honours degree waiting for me in my final year.
Not long after leaving University I was diagnosed with depression, unfortunately my GP seemed to not take the diagnosis particularly seriously and seemed to think of me as more of a nuisance. I stopped taking medication after about a month, I found it made me dull, no longer able to be intimate with my girlfriend.
I’ve managed to get a PHP Developer position with a small company in the UK. It’s a great place, but the symptoms Greg described match damn near perfectly to how I feel on a daily basis. Unless it’s absolute crunch time I struggle to get any projects finished and I feel like I’m seeing/hearing the whole world around me and often incapable of focusing on work.
When I find something I’m passionate about I can work on it almost constantly without breaking, hell I even forget to eat sometimes.
But now I find myself with a problem, I live in the UK where it seems the only way to get help with this kind of issue is by going through my GP, unfortunately GPs in the UK don’t seem to be too concerned with mental health issues and I would be really grateful if somebody with experience of dealing with depression and ADD in the UK could shed some light on the options I have?
I don’t know if any of this really makes much sense, I find it hard to tune my thoughts into some concise points, I just really want something to dull down the constant firework display going on inside my head, it’s getting unbearable.