New here but wanted to post a question. About a year and a half ago, I had a panic attack after work because I was so worried of being fired. I sought out therapy and the CBT skills I’m learning have indeed been helpful but I can’t drown out the nagging fear that if I got fired I would have ruined my career and would end up working at McDonald’s. In fact I have delayed buying a house until our down payment is such that I would be able to provide for my family on minimum wage.
Some context of why I feel uneasy: I was hired on as a business intelligence architect (creating data marts and using bi tools like cognos, business objects, QlikView, and Tableau). But we’re switching our stack to use traditional web technology. So I find myself trying to learn a brand new skill set and feel like the biggest impostor despite success in web development with Angular2. I just feel like one day they’all figure it out and I’ll be canned. It doesn’t help that I just made it to the final round of interviews at Google and was rejected at the end after 8 interviews. I just feel worthless and am constantly oscillating between extreme anxiety over small tasks (what if I don’t get this done by Friday) and depression that says my life doesn’t matter anyway and I should just give up.